Am I hanging on too tight to something that is over? I'm at a loss. With everything else happening in my life I thought you'd be the 1 person i could rely on to love and support me through it all. To understand that I'm going through hell. To reassure me that things would get better.
I've tried to change things about me, but it's going to take time. For the most part in changing me for me. I need to get my life on track. I need to take time out for myself, I need to start being a little bit selfish and saying no to people. I've hit the point where I have no more to give. I am a broken shell of what I could be. There are only so many emotional beatings I can take, and I'm pretty sure I'm at the end of my lot.
I'm beginning to wonder why I bother staying. Why I still insist on helping people who don't seem to appreciate what I've done, or the time I've given up to help them. It's all time I'll never get back.